What has shifted for you in these past 3 months?
Over the past 3 months, I’ve been able to identify my core triggers and bring awareness to how I get in my own way. I’ve had to face some of the deepest parts of myself that I’ve been afraid to sit with - for example, admitting to myself that I seek justification to exist by hoping to receive love from anyone and everyone around me at all times. Another is putting my stability at risk and willing to give away anything and everything to be loved. While I am still working on healing these wounds, I am now able to catch myself when I fall into old patterns. Over the past 3 months, my friendships have deepened, and I feel closer to both myself and others. I am continuing to work on on loving myself, trusting myself, and accepting that I am enough as I am.
What was your experience working with me? How did it feel to be in session together?
Working with you tested my ability to both trust myself, trust you, and trust our shared dynamic. At times, I noticed how I was wondering what you were thinking or feeling instead of being present inside myself. It was through this dynamic that I began to feel again and move beyond numbness, back into myself. I felt seen and safe during the sessions, even when working through more emotionally challenging spaces.
What was your favorite part of this experience?
My favorite part of the sessions was seeing the three pillows on the floor and learning about the journey toward the sovereign higher self. This really helped me understand that for a long time, my wounded inner child had been driving the way I show up in the world. I am able now to have more awareness when this happens so I can check to make sure my adult self is in the drivers’ seat.
How does it feel to be you now?
I feel more grounded in reality and able to separate what I want to be true versus what is really true. I’m more comfortable saying no to things that I don’t want to do and less inclined to make decisions out of guilt or fear. I trust myself more. I am gentler and kinder with myself. I feel alive, more awake, more conscious, less angry, and less afraid. I do not feel broken anymore, and instead feel that I am on a journey of realizing that I’ve always been whole.
-E.H.